How webcamming made me a better person!

Cata.Streamate · 31 Aug 2017, 15:09

I was friends with F for a long, long time. In fact, I cannot recall exactly the day we met, but it could have been my first school day. I remember us becoming closer and closer in high school, yet our friendship had its ups and downs- just like any other. Years and friends passed, but there was a constant- F was always more or less by my side. Holding my hand like an old friend. I however became tired of F, of the never ending sad stories she would tell me, but still kept being friends- at the end of the day, comfort was important for me for a long time, change meant something completely unknown.
The unexpected nature of life was proved once again when my career crossed paths with the camming industry. I had began working as a webcam model. This was quite a change, and F didn't like changes like those. It was when the lifestyle of a webcam model had started bothering F. This involved constantly interacting with many people during a workday, while being encouraged to express myself through my looks and activities. "Ok, this is something new that you don't find in any job!", I told to myself. I began enjoying being surrounded with people, began doing more and more fun activities that I had always wanted to do but couldn't for many reasons. Becoming more and more outgoing and eager to try new things was the thing that bothered F too much- when I began getting spontaneous, it was too much for F to take.
It was a warm Friday afternoon in this spring. I had just finished my workday. Fridays are always fun at work since everyone's so eager for the weekend to begin, I always have plenty of plans to talk about with my members- therefore I left in a great mood. For a few days, something was on my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about trying something that I had always wanted to try, but never had the courage nor the money to do it. As odd as it may sound, bungee jumping aka jumping off a high place with only some cords attached to you has always appealed to me- I wanted to feel the adrenaline rush, feel my body fall into a vast, empty space with a stunning view to complete it. And in this ordinary Friday afternoon, the thought caught me for good and didn't let me go. But it wasn't for long, it was until I have found myself, one day later, standing on that bridge. It was then that I had my last contact with F- when she found out I was actually going to do this. F, on her real name Fear has decided that we'd cut contact, right then and right there. What I know for sure, it is that I wouldn't have cut ties with fear if it wasn't for me being a cam model. It has helped me become a better person and it has helped me achieve what I wasn't believing to be possible.

Yana